Not much to say...

I have known I was going home for this silly illness for some time now.  I don't like it and never have, but I just knew.  I was just supposed to stay here for as long as I can.  I have seen little signs showing me I was still supposed to be here.  But now I can finally get this fixed and be BETTER so I can come back.

I want everyone to know I fully intend on returning to my mission as soon as possible.  I may be released.  But I plan to bring my mission to my home.  I will continue to do my studies everyday.  I will continue to have a district meeting of some sort.

I plan on going to the temple AS MUCH as possible.  Really I have many goals and things I'd like to talk about when we get home.  I know that you can help me a lot. 

I am not really happy about this, I am not excited to be away from my mission. But I think that I have come to the conclusion that this is a part of my mission.  I am supposed to learn something from this.  Something that I couldn't learn in any other way.  I'm sure there are multiple things I will learn.  I just wish I didn't have to learn it in this way.

Just as Jesus Christ asked if there was any other way, He was accepting of God's will.  I am trying to do the same.  This is just a transfer.  A very weird transfer.  I know it will be very, very hard.  But obviously Heavenly Father knows I can handle it.  So I will trust Him. 

One thing I heard President Castro say at our last meeting with the Castro's was, "It is God's will for you to finish your mission."  I know I am not done yet.  But if finishing my mission means getting this figured out at home so that I can come back and finish it, then I will do that.  I will finish my mission.  I don't want to make his a break in my mission, it is more of a bend.  I will not look at this as a vacation from my mission.  I don't want that.  I want to come back an even better, more effective missionary!  I know it can happen.

Here is a portion of President's letter to us this week, I loved it!

"Every morning I've been reading this quote from Elder Holland.  'The Savior wept and bled and died for you.  He has given everything for your happiness and salvation.  He certainly is not going to withhold help from you now!' 

We are His missionaries in the Great California Ventura Mission and He will help us."

I love that.  

I am jealous of all the missionaries that get to stay here with the Felix's and in this glorious work, but it's okay.  I will be back too.  I have a work to do in MO right now.  It better be a short period of time though...hahaha.

I am truly learning the significance of the phrase, "Come what may and love it." I want that same attitude.  And I am doing all I have in my power to have that mindset.

I will be back to the Great California Ventura Mission as a full-time missionary. 

Looks like I actually had lots to say!  Haha.  I am such a girl sometimes!!

See you soon.

Love,

Hermana Ah Mu